close my eyes, i know it's all been lies as the crowns knocked off my head and i fall from my high horse again. spread myself so thin, where do i begin to explain? know what you want to hear, just what i want to show. and in the end, nothing i say was sincere. so i just keep on trying to keep myself from lying to myself, just to fall back in that rut? no, never again. i'll make an honest effort to pull the barbs off the things i say, but i know its just a game. you say that my words hurt, you bite back just as hard. so where's your guard, keep it up, why should we have to? so i step back into the shade, the only place where i feel safe from the thousand eyes waiting for my next mistake. can i beat this fright? fear creeps up and holds on tight. will i do what's right? can i find the strength to step back into the light. when comes to saying how i feel, it's so damn hard face to face, yet i can express myself to strangers in this place. i know it shouldn't be like this, playing bully with with our disrespect. so how long until we push ourselves away for good? guided by misunderstandings, never taking the time that we should to recognise our worth. so save yourself from the misery.